Amaar Kobita

 অর্থহীন আবর্ত এবার থামাও, সেখানে আমি ভীষণ অপ্রয়োজনীয়, আগে বুঝে দেখ, পরিসীমা, আগে জেনে দেখ, চাহিদা ; সেখানে কি স্বপ্ন ছিল কখনো রোদের মাঝে বৃষ্টি হওয়ার, কখনো চাওনি অন্ধকারে আমায় নষ্ট করে পেতে, চাওনি আমার উষ্ণতাকে মেপে রাখতে । আপেক্ষিক গতিবেগে বাঁধা, তুমি চললে, চলব তো আমিও ; তবে বেনিয়মের খাতা কোথায় যার পাতা ছিঁড়ে ছিঁড়ে উড়িয়ে যাব । কিসের তবে বাঁধন যেথা তুমি রইলে তুমি-ই, শুধু আমার বেলায় ছাড়তে হবে স্বপ্ন ঘিরে সাজান যত তোমায়, আমার বেলায় মুছতে হবে   - আমারই মাঝে আমি...।।   ---- ৬ই জুলাই, ২০১২

Baro kom dami amar taap-dohe, Dhekeche tomar moddhorater birokto akash, Asole chhinno amari sutor taan, Jekhane kuasha nite elo khotiyan. Bibhokto kore alor samay, Cheyechi chute roktim thot-dwoy; Sekhane amar daager bhare roilo lekha, Jontronay mora kichu mitthe --Amaar otironjito byakkha. Nishwes haye aj abeg daanir sesh fota Tobuo ki bhorbena jodi buke dhori byatha etota, Samne andhokare tomar deshe Amaar rod furay dorjar gorad gheshe. Sohoj kare nijer majhe sajiye chilam din Asole bujhini kata mure tomay karechi heen, Tai to aj khomar pore mrityu diyeche daak, Jodi na paro dhorte buke, Tomar sorir jure amar agochalo prem thak....

Jodi bistare pai nistar, se mayajaler kuhumoy adhar, Khoitiyan debe ke, tobe path bhule nirob thakar. Ajana sobdo ese bhire kore, daray aro kichu khon ghire dhore Obak lage ghorer motoi roilo ghor, Molin byasto ajachiter asore, Nibhrit chahi duhate mekhe jodi pai samay, Tobe amar janala khuje take alingone Nijer mato kore nahay ektu mrityu chai....

নিরাকার নির্ভীক সৈনিক অগণিত তোমার খাতা জুড়ে ভুলে ভরা পাটীগণিত, অক্ষরে অক্ষরে তার তোমার ঝুলে পড়া মৃতদেহের পচা গন্ধ। তোমার জানা তবে শেষ নয়, সেখানে আমার, ওনার, পাশের বাড়িরও তরিতরকারির হলদে দাগ লাগা। মরছে কে? কেন, সাদা রঙের ইঁদুর গুলোর ঝলসানো পিঠ। তোমার পোষা কাকের ঠোঁটের ধাক্কায় তারা এদিক ওদিক ছুটে, গুপ্তধনের গর্তে। বারান্দায় তখন বায়েসের দল, আরাম করে বাসি পায়েসের নিমন্ত্রণে, দল বাঁধে; আর ঠিক তখনই আগুন জলে ওঠে ওপাশের জলাধারে। সম্ভব? নয় কেন? তার ধারা যদি হিংস্র হয়, তবে কেউ তো তাকে রুখতে চায়, প্রতিরোধ যদি বাধ ভাঙ্গে, তবে আগুন জ্বালতে কে না জানে।

Ek gocha kobitar khata bhul kare chuyechilam, Agun legechilo duhat jure tomar chokher nagale, Dosh chilo kobitar nay, kobitar khata tar, Se asole cheyechilo ojante amay; hote cheye dabidar. Ojachito abdar, majhe ami sudhu jerbar, Dure kore khatha khani, kobitake biday seshbar.. Ojante valobese bhulechilo keu, Temon manush ghore ese tomaro tuleche dheu, Se bortoman, se anno name choddonamer anubhuti, Jachito, kankhito, uposthit e piramoy khon, Amar chitkare tolena se othiti agomon. Tomar ghor daami tai anek roye geche benami - Soto upekkharo pore amar; Amar ghore fatol sudhui tai tomar hayeo -Amar majhe nikhoj hate besh lage ebar......

Tikhno chilo taapmatra Takhono bhay bedonar aturghore; Jonmo nite dekhlo nirob jothor Arek ahonkar andhokare. Trahi rob, bedonarto hridoy, Beje cholr byartho proyase niruttap Dhwoni jontrer molin nirdesh Baro shanto roilo kolorob. Akontho bishe nilabho jakhn poritran Jhorer beshe niramoy dilo- Antim sukh-snaan..........

Tomay abujh pakhi boli jodi, Anek ta dile mon kharap, Tomay buker sokhi bole daki, Tobe dhele dile premer alap. Tobu bisher choa jwolche golay Aro ache naki muche felar daye Amari antor khuje patro pele? Arekta raat kenoiba tobe dile. Porichoyer prayojon ki ba, Upose thakto buker pahar, Anubhuto jome thaka abhimaan Aro hoto nahay sohorer buke Arekta khun, jodi hoi bemanan.

Biraso din birolo kaj, probol biddrohe Bhabile tumi moretechi khone khone, tomari somarohe; Ekela roi olosomon, nirob ei bhobono kon, Seta bhule, dile bhore badha kache jaibare, Bhabile tumi moritechi khone khone, tomari somarohe; Soto majhe ekti barta, jahay ache hridoy, Firiyachi baki sab, meki nba sajari daay, Tobu holem miche, jetha je roy chariyachi sei path, Bhangile dwar sukher aji abar e khone, Tomari chorone orponeri joye ami porajito, Tobu bhabile ami miche keboli, oporajito ohe. Bhabile tumi moritechi khone khone, tomari somarohe ??

Dukkho boro, sukher thekeo, kana korio kaare desh Amar abol tabol bekheyali mone, jomei thakbe tomari resh. Pathor hayecho mon pishecho mere, amar dabanole Ami to bandhu tomar buke, jenechi valobasa kake bole. Janini bolei path ghurechi, hochot kheyechi rokto mekhe Tumi nai setha, aralae tai bole, emni kore bhuler nidaan diye dile. Moner kheyal lorte chay dukher bhabna haye, Jitbe sei uthan jure, chaicho jake peye. Vabnar path hayniko sesh, aro anek krosher deri, Mon diye pora ki jay, annay sashoner beri. Sudhu ke baro mepe nao, atoslagha na valobasa, jimon maron dui hate khele, protidaane apekkhar asha....

Sirnokay aarti, tahai akre valobasa, Durbar porihare, chilona porisor lekha, Tobu bibad, jor bare kahar, Valobasar na tahar kayar dhirghakaar; Nibhiye cholechi chilo joto daag, Tobu na meteni kichu firiyechi chokher anuraag, Bishom tobu proti swase; Ami abaddho niruddes amar mononer bikashe, Proshno chore tomar proti anujoger taan E ki tobe sokoli chilo aposher daan. Khola boier patay porecho jake Aj se khwin, boi lekhar aporadhe? Amar behisabi ajosro swaase Tomar guchiye chola bosobase - Aj mrityu tobe hok nischit, Otiter khesarote, sototar abonomon, tomar songhate....

Boye jak aro kayek-fota jol Du-chokh bondi kore; Boye jak sesh bindu rokto Dhomoni suddho kore.. Tobuo firche koi ja chilo sajano Jotne rakha sediner sabi - aj agochalo, Ekhono ami sei pathei Roj mepe choli amar deho, Jodi bojho valo nei, Apekkhay tomari porichito - ami keho....

Jodi bistare pai nistar, se mayajaler kuhumoy adhar, Khoitiyan debe ke, tobe path bhule nirob thakar. Ajana sobdo ese bhire kore, daray aro kichu khon ghire dhore Obak lage ghorer motoi roilo ghor, Molin byasto ajachiter asore, Nibhrit chahi duhate mekhe jodi pai samay, Tobe amar janala khuje take alingone Nijer mato kore nahay ektu mrityu chai....

Sudhu beche beche dinantei andhokarer pathe, Rod gulor lukochuri, niomyer khata khute khute; Jodi emni hotem amio tobe, niruddesher akash fure Mene neoar ushno buke day ki nite, ektu bheja chokh jure, Sethay sudhui niom, sthobir haye roye jaoa, Ami bodol chaile bisher tholi, abdareo bestota. Sudhu boye gelam amar sobuj, laal rokter daag, Ami chaite pari bisorjonei payer matir anuraag, Sudhu chaite gelei jhonjha aghat, setha sobi daami, Ullas er mohafeje, ami niruttor podatik benami. Roye jabe sabi temon jemon biporit soto anurodheo Amar mato ekti janla - hayna ajo kanna eleo, Diye jete jete path bhule chaiteo to pari, Jodi bodlate hay soriye rekhe, tai dure sore se abhisaari....

Dohon tibro, aro neshatur niruddesher haatchani Chorabalimoy suto bune chole e janla theke moner dorja khani. Chayamoy haye asoriri alingone, ami ahoto dibaratri tyage Kichu likhon andhokaro dite pare, somo hoye miliye nitam biraage. Ja kichu molin amari dorbare, suddho haye subhro hao aro Kakhono roktopaate lohit bostro tyajiyo, amar mato nai ba hayo. Ekhane utsrinkhol valobasa, unmad tari nimojjoner mognotay Hate bolini simrekhay durbar, paro jodi bujhe niyo - kothay ami sokoler arale tomay bina aponei porihaar......

Bibhokto dui prithibi, prantore jibon sudhar khoj, Amar banja matir gondho chere, pari di opare roj roj. Nichok sobi chobir mato, dhore rakha kolpona Asole rokto jhoreo sikto nay se dhulo Amari barebare porajoyer golpo na? Achchut thak tobe aro duto kanna rakhlam bag e pure Sore jabe antore amar majeh kichu ami kebol Parena jara oparer nona soite.. Tobu mishe jabo tomar matir sobuj hatchani Amar to sabi kalo sokoli bole tumi dile jani, Ektu fire chaibo majhe majhe fele rakha khon, Debona tomay ahonkarer bigyapon; Amari mrityu cheye habe joy tomar joyorother, Amar nikhoj chakar hodis bisrito, Abeg borjito kebol tomar podotole...

Tumi bhirer majhe sobdo khojo, Manushe khuje pao mane, Ami okaron amar majhe sunnyo Niruttorer alingone. Ekla hate chaoar majhe Ami ekla chilam na, Sudhu ghorer bhetor gondho amar Thakbe bole soyechi na? Okaroner bhir tomar dajhyo sesab tobu Ami cheyeo muchte barebare chaite parini. Amar sunyo duwar jure Meghla akasher gumot kanna Jiboner byanjoge anujog sudhui, Ekti janala amar mato ki hayna??

Ek gocha kobitar khata bhul kare chuyechilam, Agun legechilo duhat jure tomar chokher nagale, Dosh chilo kobitar nay, kobitar khata tar, Se asole cheyechilo ojante amay, hate cheye dabidar. Ojachito abdar, majhe ami sudhu jerbar, Dure kare khatha khani, kobitake biday seshbar.. Ojante valobese bhulechilo keu, Temon manush ghore ese, tomaro tuleche dheu, Se bortoman, se anno name choddonamer anubhuti, Jachito, kankhito, uposthit e piramoy khon, Amar chitkare tolena se othiti agomon. Tomar ghor daami tai anek roye geche benami - Soto upekkharo pore amar; Amar ghore fatol sudhui tai tomar hayeo -Amar majhe nikhoj hate besh lage ebar......

Tomra tenecho chumbon bidroher pathe, Astro sajiye arek sobbhotar dorshon bedhe dite; Ami nirobe jatona soye, aro otole gechi boye, Amar akkhunno pronoyer durbar mejaj, Ami jotone diyechi tar sorbange laaj, Hate parini ami biplob, hayechi sudhu tomari gourob, Bishwo jure soptomeri joyogaan, Ami chai tomar amar praan jure --- Bare abre boye jak, ei ashtomer kuhutaan.....

Amar valo mando mekhe roilo sei sondher gondho, Ami tomar moner deoal likhon, batsorik dukkho-tontrer.. Amar ador jure roilo kebol, sunno buker prapti, Amar diner aloy ghotona gulor, dhulo jharar ghota.. Byasto tumi, aboho birage, anudhabone khuji tomar desh Amar sokol jurei roye jai ami, Sudhu bare bare tomar neshar ghore, tobu jodi mone pore, kothao kone lukano ami - khati ek peyala bish....

Robena kichui emone, tumi ami ba se ei dhulomakha astorone, Jehad gune promad asibare unmad haye firibe ghore, Rojoni seta abhisare aloy dhabone ayojito khone, Abar uthibe jobe seta khudar chad.... Bare bare tumi sei jholsano ruti makha, ek jyotsna faad........